Cyber Bullying / Shakes Of Within

Cyber bullying. 

"More than a million British youngsters being bullied online every day"/Emily Dugan/ 'The Independent'

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/more-than-a-million-british-youngsters-being-bullied-online-every-day-8852097.html

Reading a few articles on the subject, a few responses, and I think- the only voice I don't hear is the voice of the abused. I was not a teenager when I've went through cyber bullying, through the faceless and nameless fear. The shadows that's spreading. 

Shakes of within, whirlwind of shivers

Fears if emotions, torn out and sway
My crying for help, I only can hear

My longing for quiet, I’m only to listen

I’ll go and touch others in despair for warmth

Though no peace in me, no feeling of home

And so on in that darkness

I’m hiding from fears if emotions

So here in this night of within

Go out, if I’ll dare, that scare is still waiting, still lurking

Stay in, if I’ll dare, emotions, there in the shadows that’s spreading

Just times, when all quiet, wrapped in a night dream

I’ll let myself go to a place I don’t know

I’ll let myself roam with others in blur

Then there are moments of quiet

Then there are moments of home

That cheating of dreams, that cruelness of light

That thread that I’m walking, just there in between

That cave that I’m hiding, just there in within

That scare that is waiting to tear me apart

On those moments of night it all comes together

And that fear and that quiet evolve into one

Then there is peace if some warmth

Then there is feeling of home

moments

Moments. know, doesn't know, move through the days, passing their way, time passing, time, passing, road goes on, leading, toward the morning, toward the day, together, night is falling, stars playing with moon in the sky, always, on what night the stars and the moon don't converse, see, doesn't see when clouds in the sky and rain, stars laughter, hearing, doesn't hear.

in the sky stars in a little while, evening is falling, birds singing, the pink flowers of the tree blooming, going out, cigarette, sit and look at the flowers, a cup of tea, going in, a melody, going out, a candle, in the night the song is singing to the children

evening is falling, morning is rising, a bird in the garden with a very very song, now, not now, doesn't know, know, to read in the map, she have songs to sing and stories to tell and sometimes a bird, sometime a people walking the streets and ask and can be only what is, night is falling, morning is rising. do you think there is full after it was already, was full, have emptied, have filled, there is full, in the sky, tonight, full moon after was already empty, again, came, again, went, again, you think, full, empty, was, already, emptied, filled, sky, night, moon

again you are thinking

good night

again you are feeling

good morning

The K-pop Factory

The fashion of the K- pop scene seems to stay in very shallow water. One of Korea's most successful group member, and he is supposed to be the highest fashion icon in the k-pop world, is pretty much a dress up lover that is dressing up in all trends known. it might be so that in Korea he is a taboo breaker but can we say that someone that breaks his own taboos just by dressing up as something else on a daily base is fashionable break through?. The Fashion of the K-pop stars seems to stay in the very shallow water of conservatively;  what is available already in the market. 

Does the music goes to deeper water? My friends have researched a bit here and there who are actually writing all those songs, and it seems that many of them are bought all over the world and adjusted in Korea. It seems that the same thing is happening both in the lyric/music world as with the fashion: The k-pop wave does not seems to be a story of a storm that is coming from within the artist/s themselves and create a new wave or movement, but instead a well directed and produced show of a well orchestrated performance. A storm in the cup of tea of capitalism. 

it seems that what we see and hear is not any individual voice but a big choir divided to groups; the voice of the industry, the voice of money. 

The show is well directed, recent numbers released shows that for 110,000 tickets sold in Japan (not for a major group) 8,000,000 were needed in order to answer full demand. The many groups are sold out all around Asia, China of course, and have moved to perform also in Europe and the USA with sold out shows. 

The agencies web sites shows that each agency basically produce quite a few groups and if you open their web-page you will see that they hold an audition every week for new talents. Once a group is decided it is supplied with songs they are buying all over the world, the new kids are dressed up, they are rehearsed and they are released with a chosen concept as - the group that is dressed in white, the group with the helmets, the school album and so on. 

Yet even more interesting seems to be the two faced group concept- the group have a duplicate group for the Chinese market that sings in Chinese, sometime they all meet and sing together, sometime they are mixed and sometime they are separated though performing the same songs. Its like saying that 'The Beatles' would have a group of another four members that sings in French the same songs. 

It seems that the individual voice have changed here into a collective commercial voice that is producing idols and performers (=money) rather than artists. And it works. In a Hollywood style sort of factory it works.

We can see already that this movement can take over individuality and creativity and changed into a factory like production as have happened in fashion. It is enough to open one of the major fashion magazines in the USA and see that only money goes in. A NEW 'Chanel' and a 'Prada', A 'Yohji Yamamoto' and an 'Issey Miyake' are not anymore needed. What is needed these days in Fashion is money, a good well connected P.R. and a few young fashion college graduates that will follow a given concept. The sky are the limit in term of money, creativity and individuality are not part of the process. Perhaps it is happening with the world of music as well- who needs any more The Beatles and an Elvis, a Sting or even a Madonna (too individualist), instead what is needed is a group of good looking young performer/s that will already be formed into the desired money making form. 

Music, Fashion, who care about those. 

p.s. Gangnam Style is an exception and not the rule, and is mostly about being a very good performer anyway. 

I don't have any inner knowledge of this factory, this is just an observation. 

fashion and magazines and then some wondering

Went to the hairdresser and as usual, leafed through the fashion magazines pile. I've notice that my leafing today was quick, one magazine, then another, a third one and in barely no time, a fourth, a fifth. So I've stopped to think and found myself  involved in self talking: it seems dear that nothing is right with you, your eye lashes are not, your skin is not, your nails are not, your hair is not, your bag, your shoes, your clothes, not, not, not, and your legs are not long enough, and you are not tanned enough or white enough, and your weight is not, and your food is not and your lipstick is not and, and----

You are just not defined enough or futuristic enough or soft enough or enough of an object, is short

And then I moved to the kiss as it seem a very trendy thing to do as an object these days in magazines, and I looked at it and asked my self if this a kiss worth kissing at all as hands are not empty and knees are not melting, and instead a bag is held high tightly or a shoe is raised in great calculation. And I think a kiss as such should be terminated at the spot when any kiss is involved as it doesn't seems worthwhile to kiss at all,  and i won't even speak of the three days wait until  the guy will grow a male-male like hair on his face as that seems as a complete waste of the time that can be used for a good kiss.

Where are those fashion magazines going with this Cxxx, i've actually kept asking myself---

the models and the actresses, even they are not themselves in those photos but a photoshop version of themselves, no brand what so ever that can't buy its way through into those pages is not presented, instead of fashion i have looked at money bought commercials in all ways possible- photo shoots, plain advertisements, seemingly content articles things and so on.

Let me confess- I love fashion, i think its creative and powerful yet my hair is not 'it', my skin is not 'it', my clothes are not 'it', my bag is not 'it', my shoes are not 'it', my food is not 'it', my legs are not 'it', my body is not 'it', my hair is not 'it', my nails are not 'it', my drinks are not 'it',  my kiss is not 'it' and, even my beautiful car doesn't seems to be it as its not sparkly nor clean enough, and on and on the list goes and still i happen to surprisingly live (surprise indeed!!) and even come back to tell that that i am not a photo shop automated version of a fashion magazine's money bought editor or director's whatever industry mind. 

Or if i'll say it in plain fashion- I love fashion but in those glossy seemingly perfect magazines i don't happen to find any fashion at all. 

p.s. Not long ago, at the hair dresser's I saw a whole campaign in one of the magazines about Organic Hair, page after page after page it went on and I was clueless.  I've asked the hair dresser then what is organic hair. He looked at me and was quiet for a while, went on with the hair cut, was quiet some more and then said- I have no idea at all, and a good answer was that.

Fashion, for me its about projecting my inner feel and mood, about enhancing myself, fashion is life itself walking the streets, my heart beating, the movements i make, the expression of my body and face, and every morning when dressing up i will ask myself- is this right, is this the mood.
Those magazines I saw today were about creating a dream world that even the models and actors/actresses that are shown in them can not enter. It might all be another religion, a dead zone perhaps it is but the beating of the heart it is not. 

Is it another Borat movie?

Bradley/ Chelsea Mannings was sentenced to 35 years in jail. The young person have done what each one of us have probably dreamt of doing this way or that, this age or that. To be on the brighter side of humanity and larger than own self- a Super man or woman, a Robin Hood of the time. The young soldier have done that, only for that he deserves the medal of humanity; he have done the right thing to do from the point of view of democracy and enlightenment. The army might not agree with that but then the army, any army, is not about democracy or enlightenment. A separation of the army from the civil world was needed in the same way that religion had to be separated from the state. The army, as well as religion, are placed under the constitution and civil laws in any democratic society. 

Yet, the U.S. army seems to guide the whole country in this recent quest and witch hunt of various Antigones. Whistle blowers and traitors and other such names are attached to people that a civil liberal society will crowned as the heros of democracy, and later days will probably still call them that. From any army point of view the 'crime' is deserving the punishment, but then who is the boss in the U.S.A.- is it the army or is it the civil law---If the army wants to deter other soldiers from performing such an act is should not make an example out of a soldier but just refrain from doing acts that are forbidden by the civil law. Those now days Antigones, and there are a few of them, are rotting in jails and others are still sought, pursued and hunted down. The dark side in these stories is not the people that are put behind bars or hiding somewhere in the world but the organizations and governments pursuing them with such a zeal. 

This lost of power by the army over free thinking soldiers and citizens is leading the Army and the government to a cheap power game with a theme of witch hunting. We all want to keep democracy alive and we all want to live in a terror free and peaceful society. The army might be a tool that can help achieve such a state but history have taught us already that the army should definitely stay out of the civil world. And I am talking about the present day situation and not of the idea of army free societies.  

Already the story have turned into a cheap Hollywood comedy with one hero hiding in an Embassy, one hero have been on trial and is actually not a man but a woman (And I'm all for that if thats what the person wants) and made a hormone treatment request to the army, one hero was playing hide and seek in an international airport with a government for long, one Brazilian boy friend of another hero is arrested in another airport embarrassing episode, one government is destroying computers for no actual reason but 'you have had your fun, its enough', one presidential airplane is also involved in another silly happening and thats only what I've picked up. 

One would think its another 'BORAT' movie. Maybe Mr. Cohen, Sasha, Baron will pick up the glove and entertain us with this recent goose chase and witch hunt. 

the dog, the cat & Antigone

The news. A new dog in the white house. ...what can one say? 

I can probably say it like this- I hope the dog have lots of good times, it definitely seems there is lots of space to run around. 

Or what about- I offer to donate our neighborhood's bully cat to the White House as well. No donation required at all in return. An arranged pick up will be good enough. Now, this will be an act of kindness and generosity to all the cats in this area. They will actually be able to go out freely again and play. Or nap. 

The stray cat have really turned into a moral question- what to do with this bully? and yet, whatever it have done we don't feel as calling the authorities and putting it to sleep as that is in most probability what will happens. The latest idea involves catching it and taking it to live in the mountains (Is it legal at all). Personally I like this plan. Will we be able to catch it and how remained to be seen though. Its hard to believe moving will traumatized the bully cat too much as it already arrived here from some where else not long ago (maybe someone have brought it here), and since then have terrorized all the cats population in the area. 

one thing we have learnt for sure, house cats that goes for a stroll or a nap some where are not exactly wild any more. the name of the game is not survival for them, they are all about enjoying all the worlds; food at home and a nap in the sun somewhere, an occasional little animal they catch and sleep on a pillow at home. The stray bully have brought here a different set of rules and is scaring all the cats indoors, either by their own choice or their people's choice. We don't let our cat out anymore and he doesn't like it at all, to say the least, but the wounds and the vet's bills are not a pretty sight.  

Is it better to let the sweet home cat out to another probable battle or is it better to keep him safe, and stressed, at home. Is it better to call the city's authorities and have the bully removed, or is it better to try and catch him, either ask concerned organizations to find him a home or just take it to the mountains and back to the wild as apparently the bully cat is not cultured yet. 

Having a cat is an individual choice, the problems even having a pet are of the political and moral spheres. It makes me wonder if there is an individual sphere left at all. 

And- The white house new dog is definitely political and by the way, as cute as the new dog seems and as much as we are all sure the dog will have a great and free life, he doesn't attract the attention from the bizarre decisions of the white house in regards to human rights and democracy as a whole. 

But- There is a new dog running freely and happily on the grass of the white house. 

Yet- There is a soldier that was locked up today for many years because he have loved democracy and acted upon it. And that's talking of only one Antigone.  

I can definitely recommend to the policy makers to take a break and read the book again. 

Singing in the back of my head and a Panda

I am not sure about you, but when I saw an article about Panda and sex, I've entered it without a blink. We've already decided lately that Japan hold the Panda obsession gold medal with last year intercourses of Tokyo's pandas going on air in family prime time t.v..day after day, upon availability of course...Truth is we've had so many laughs from the stories of parents about the kids that have learnt about the sexual intercourse fact of life from the dear pandas on t.v.. (The stories were told by 'lost' parents in search for the remote control and too slow in it. The panda already did the deed. The kid already watched. Explanation had to be given). 

And so the article in 'The Independent' began- (link attached in the end)

"For most of us, the idea of having a panda looking on as we try to procreate is unlikely to be a turn-on. But for the male giant panda, this could be what they need. Potentially earth-shaking research suggests that male pandas, famous for their struggles in "shaping up", are much more attentive to females when exposed to the smell of a rival."

And I thought how the writer have got the facts confused already. What the Panda seems to need is a scent and an interested party of another male/s and not an observer. And with that I don't see any real difference between the Panda and the Human's male. I think that to that fact any woman can testify in the court of law- in order to get the attention of the man you like, go and flirt with his friend! The threesome and the jealousy factor are perhaps down to the idea of a scent in instincts language. 

'If you don't love her, your best friend will', Sting is singing in the back of my head ( 'Sacred love'). This might be the male perspective, from the female point of view its the inducing, 'using' of that same instinct. It seems we all need a good mixture of male and female scents for love and sex. 

The male is not only more interested in a female that other male is also interested in (Is that really earth shuttering news) but in order to really be aroused by a female,  the scent of another male is required as well. Instinct condition orders! It can be said of the female too, a male is always more desirable if that female is envied by the girlfriends.

Its true its all a very simple condition and usually we are advancing some from those raw instincts as time goes by, but as usual we are more connected than we think in our core to our origin. And to the cute Panda too. 

Link-

Panda sex exposé

By Roger Dobson

http://www.independent.co.uk/environment/nature/panda-sex-expos-why-does-the-male-struggle-to-perform-his-duty-in-captivity-8772738.html